My photographer angel, the talented Miss Claire Louisa, is bringing some life back to this here spine. It's nice--no--it's really lovely! to work with somebody in this way, you know? For the small handful of years I've been doing this thing, I've done it largely in a vacuum (with a few super important exceptions! I've had wonderful interactions with Julia and Bethany [whose brainchild I have the great good fortune to be a part of]). It gets lonely. The independence of self-documentation has been really important. Getting up, getting dressed, deciding yes, this is worth showing. But shooting with another human is infinitely more fun. Here are a few we took before Christmastime that I adore. If I were a better editor, I'd distill it down to an image or three, but I'm too excited about all of them, so.
Today I was talking to a friend about why we use the new year as an excuse (and/or) motivation to renew ourselves. To begin being who we didn't try hard enough to be the year before. We started with the obvious: why wait? Why not always pursue yourself, exactly as you want to be, to the best of your ability? Why not take each moment by the horns, the balls, the whatever-you-wish, whenever, forever? Carpe that fucking diem, like the t-shirts say. But then, like, look: what are we without our structures and our rituals? I've always pooh-poohed the notion of resolutions, because I wanted to be more than the time, exist outside of it, ahead of it, beat myself to the punch. I want to do it all by instinct, without having to write it down--take myself apart and examine all the little cogs and just know how to put them all back in their right place, no manual required. A human doesn't work that way. Or most don't. This one doesn't. So hey, here, from me to me:
- Stick to you aerial regimen, always. Remember the things that pull you through your dark days and nurture the shit out of them. Trust your body to get as strong as you allow it to.
- Continue to be tender. Terrify yourself with the things you're willing to say. Live without apathy and do not be ashamed at being the most embarrassing person you know.
- Take up projects, participate. Be involved with people and their work in the same way you want them to be involved with you and yours.
- Chapbook. Choreography. Creation. Every day, make something. Throw nothing out.
- Be more gregarious. People like you more than you think they do. Hide less, play more.
- Save some money. Put on your big girl pants. Deal with bureaucracy like you were born to do it. Remember that you have a great phone voice; wield it.
- Be a better witch, and don't you dare wait for the planets to align.
Here's to surviving. Here's to another turn around the sun.